it 22 feb agaiin? e love hadn't stopp? WHYY? ihab enuf of paiin. mabbie if ppl wana call it 'retribution'.i would hab pay it all le? but why do i still hab to face? two years ago on dis bery dae. i met YOU. at e bbc. YOU were so special among all de other guys. dat YOU cot moii eyes. at tat time it was my first time experencing first sight love & i finally understand tat it do exist. YOU& i started to chat while de rest were plae vball. i remember my first qns fer YOU was " ****** , jeremy lyk hu? ju?leo? den we started chatting on. my first impression ofYOU was dat u are caring&nice though not charming. but not a few daes later, i noe tat u stead wid mel. my crush &my buddy. saddedd. it hurts but it wasn't deep as it was a slight crush only. out of sudden one dae.YOU suddenly told me i was cute & u named me potato. it was a tease but after u went on leaving a i love you everydae i pass by ur cls.& YOU started sending me love piic. of cos i would be happie but i noe afterall YOU were jokiin. everyting caused mel to tot tat i was de third party? i was sad. cos i didn't even tot of breaking YOU guys up & i am accused of itt. was tat faiir?but luckily YOU were dere to console me. YOU promise me tat if i am down YOU are willing to lend me ur shoulder but all i could sae is tat YOU break ur promise. are promise meant to b broken? dec2oo3. YOU asked me hu i love. i told YOU it was YOU. YOU gab me hope but after all it was a sad ending. tat time i was crazy about YOU okiie. everydae i wrote songs/letters fer YOU but i noe i wouldn't b send out. it was de first time in life iwas hurt. anth momment was dat YOU stead wid jie. OMGG! tat momment was hurting enuf okiie. i cried so badly. i wish YOU been careful wid my heart but u tore it apart. it was saddening enuff. 31aug. YOU told me to gib up YOU. i tried but i couldn't. sep holiday was a terrible holidae fer me. i suffer depressiion & i cried so badly tat i nearly commit sucide. i feel tat i ending up wid no choice & e best choice to forget YOU was to die? de ending of year 2oo4 was terrible fer YOU but i tried to b dere fer YOU to b ur listening ears , to encourage YOU. i jus hope to treat YOU as a fren & nth else but i was suh afailure tat i couldn't make it. 27jan2oo5.i crieddd.! it was hurting enuf tat YOU asked me to like someone else which YOU noe i hated him. haiis. it is all equal to unliminated hurt YOU wouldn't b able to repay. i dun hope tat YOU repay cos dere is no use stopiin. so carry on with your life with the person YOU love. all i could sae is tat YOU change alot . YOU are not tat xiaozhu tat i used to knoww. i hope tat you would change. seeing YOU happie , i will b happie too.
