imLOST now. bery lost. las nite i totally canot slp lohs. haiis. i kp tinking of e words he told me & suddenly 933 got chunzai. it brought me back to e memoriies we had okiie. tis was the first time in lifetime i cried tat sadly & not noeiin e reason why i br8 down. haiis. life miserble. will leave on? i manage to get some consolation frm ridzwan. & actually jas but he slp le. so i sms 'him'. he nv replii. i sincerly told all e words which came out deep frm moii heart lohs. i was lyk tinking since he don't lyk me but i hav e rights to like him rites.? he no need to call me to go & lyk someone else de rites. u noe tat momment hurt okiie. & somemore he told me since tat guy lyk u fer so long how can u expect him to wait? den was lyk tinking HELLO BOI WAITED FER YOU FER EVEN LONGER HOW CAN U EXPECT ME TO WAIT. it e same isn't it? i now really wanted to gib up him lohs. it am tired le. after almost 2 yrs. of pains & sheding of tears. actually now i wan to tell him sth: u can carri on wid ur STEAD and jus treat me transparent bahs. wad fer u care about how i feel. wad fer you care about if i still lyk u? WHY? all dis daes i jus treated u as frens lohs. but my heart did'nt. i want to find someone hu can replace him. but hu's dere? now i aso dun even dare to face him anymore. see him my heart is jus torn apart lohs. todae in skool . i was lyk feeling so miserable okiie. & out of sudden i breakdown. tears surrounded my eyes. wenever i tink of him. my heart was broken okiie. why love so hard? why do i hab to suffer all dis while.? wad hab i done? isn't him de one hu made me lyk him first? why did he tease me rite at e start of e skool telling me he LOVE me but it was jus kidding? why did he send me all e love msg? WHY? he can't blame me frm all dis rites? he shd help to bear e responsiblities den to push it all to me rites? now i jus feel tat all my sacrifies hab gone down to e drain. i am tired le. GAME OVER! i jus hope we could still b frens after all. i got afeel after tis matter we aren't fren anymore. cos he told me yesterdae le. dat he tried not to kp in contact wid me le. other den MSN. haiis. why did everyting turn out lyk tis? can u tell me? i am sadd.!
