woot. jus came back frm camp yestdae. & i am superb tiredd. yawns. lets tok bout e program. frii bfer e camp leo came moii hse lohs. den we go dere together. me & leo same grp . *wee* den we had toks toks toks . den hav grp activity. nik make us luff lyk siao. den de dae jus pass lahs. i learn quite a few tingy. den went to slp at 12. but i couldn't slp. perharps its all his fault again. i tink i onli fell a slp at 1+ goin 2 . den it was shoo cold lohs. my towel fly lohs. hahas. nes dae which was sat wake up at 4+. den we prepare to set off fer trekiin. packed our bags. den 6.30 lyk dis set off lohs. we walk frm zhenghua- bt timah. no stop okiie. den at bt timah we walk to macritchie. den got go e checkpoint which was e treetop. so scariie nehs. so tall & shaky. den frm tree top. we walk to sicc. den saw fanyong dey all de grp. dey r fast cos dey were joggin if i am not wrong.den we walked to thomson lohs. we had outdoor cooking at one of e busstop. after den we continue our journey. mandai road is damm long okiie.! OMG. i will hate mandai road in my life. den at 4+ we finally finis e road. & we reach woodlands lohs. we rest at e patrol station. & tom ho finally bought us coke. for goodness sakee!!! we were tired man. our legs was so soft liao. den was thirsty somemore. e coke was lyk birdnest to us. lol. after rest. we walk back frm woodlands to bukit panjang. & we finally reach skool. YEAH!!! we were de second. quite suprised nehs. den we took out logistic & clean e mass tin. den we had to do grp reflection. den tom ho tok to us lohs. he tot me quite a few tings lahs. den was some debrefin by e chers. 9+ almost 10 den go home lohs. dead tired. todae wake up 10+ den do hw. den went to fajar to makan lohs. came back listen to 933. den came online. haiis. nv see him online. i really wana solve all dose tings lohs. i m tired le. =(
time to sae G O O D B Y E /
Break free,
10:23 PM
imLOST now. bery lost. las nite i totally canot slp lohs. haiis. i kp tinking of e words he told me & suddenly 933 got chunzai. it brought me back to e memoriies we had okiie. tis was the first time in lifetime i cried tat sadly & not noeiin e reason why i br8 down. haiis. life miserble. will leave on? i manage to get some consolation frm ridzwan. & actually jas but he slp le. so i sms 'him'. he nv replii. i sincerly told all e words which came out deep frm moii heart lohs. i was lyk tinking since he don't lyk me but i hav e rights to like him rites.? he no need to call me to go & lyk someone else de rites. u noe tat momment hurt okiie. & somemore he told me since tat guy lyk u fer so long how can u expect him to wait? den was lyk tinking HELLO BOI WAITED FER YOU FER EVEN LONGER HOW CAN U EXPECT ME TO WAIT. it e same isn't it? i now really wanted to gib up him lohs. it am tired le. after almost 2 yrs. of pains & sheding of tears. actually now i wan to tell him sth: u can carri on wid ur STEAD and jus treat me transparent bahs. wad fer u care about how i feel. wad fer you care about if i still lyk u? WHY? all dis daes i jus treated u as frens lohs. but my heart did'nt. i want to find someone hu can replace him. but hu's dere? now i aso dun even dare to face him anymore. see him my heart is jus torn apart lohs. todae in skool . i was lyk feeling so miserable okiie. & out of sudden i breakdown. tears surrounded my eyes. wenever i tink of him. my heart was broken okiie. why love so hard? why do i hab to suffer all dis while.? wad hab i done? isn't him de one hu made me lyk him first? why did he tease me rite at e start of e skool telling me he LOVE me but it was jus kidding? why did he send me all e love msg? WHY? he can't blame me frm all dis rites? he shd help to bear e responsiblities den to push it all to me rites? now i jus feel tat all my sacrifies hab gone down to e drain. i am tired le. GAME OVER! i jus hope we could still b frens after all. i got afeel after tis matter we aren't fren anymore. cos he told me yesterdae le. dat he tried not to kp in contact wid me le. other den MSN. haiis. why did everyting turn out lyk tis? can u tell me? i am sadd.!
-off to camp.
Break free,
9:16 PM
wee. * todae was my small nephew's bdae.lol =) todae went to skool den meet ju dey all den ahleo late lohs. den we wait fer her till nearly late fer skool. * whack ahleo de pigu. den first period was math lahs. did some revision & got back test paper. me scold 10/15 lohs. den was EL lah. e mr lim go sing in cls lohs. so eeeew..!!! den reading period. he cum our cls. *wee. =) but we nv tok lahs. sad. =( den recess. we go down awhile den cum up le. den me go pinch jas de butt. den he wana pinch me back. den i run. den cut moii hand. haiis. after was SS. i listen till nearly fall asleep. dun even noe wad e cher tokiin about lohs. den POA. todae lesson fun siia. cos mr teo in good mood lehs. den chinese. mr ong noe we dun wana listen so he told us his story. last two period was amath. so hard. STRESS. den after skool. ju dey all tio e npcc dae parade de. so go meeting. den me & kardong at outside mahs. after den went to gplaza to meet leo lohs. den chit chat. makan. den went over to plae bball. quite fun lehs todae. we won weeseng & lijin . den actually wana go e BAD ting de . but end up nv. after came home. bath. makan den came online lohs. den he suddenly tok to me . i bery shock okiie. haiis. i told him my TRUE words okiie. and i jus feel lyk cryin lohs. haiis. den he sae if i nid console he will always b dere. will he? haiis. now i sms him he aso dun wan repli me. sad. =(. den leo cum moii hse lohs. she plae com. hmph. here's e end of e dae. jus wana sae. noone can stop me frm lovin him. =(
itEND. finish../ ~ ]]
Break free,
5:34 AM
todae wake up den saw mum loh cos she bo work mahs. hehes. met ju dey all as usual. den pe plae discus. sians half lohs. den de las throw. shelia go throw den hit hamimah leg. if weixiong nv siam den sure kena his face de. dat shelia hor so violent. duno is wan to attract attention or wad. after pe was math lohs. do stuffs den recess lohs. den me fight wid shelia. she SUCKS okiie. kp lisiao. kp lahs. den was eng. as usual no body listen okiie.! den we tok lohs. wid zihan dey all den noe a few things after den was chinese. mr ong fierce seh. den he sae e poem. me wana fall a slp liao.lol. den was phy. do experiment. den tommy dey all kp lisiao lohs. ahhas. las two period was POA but ah teo no cum. so tat ahgong cum lahs. he same genearation as me okiie. cos my ahgong is weixiong. his ahgong aso weixiong.lol. den dat ahgong so funni lahs. he shout aso duno how. after skool. dey cum moii hse. den shout here shout dere. den go gplaza lohs. saw ciyun dey all. den dey makan long john while me had mos burger. den yun dey all cum agaiin lohs. den me go cut hair. got cut lyk bo cut lyk dis. but shorter le. den we go took neoprint lohs. wid yun.kardong.chuan & gavin lohs. so sqyeezy and hot lohs. but nice pic. see below fer picture. after den we actually wana go bangkit de. but ended up in ju hse. so we plae dere lohs. ahahs. den went home. den manage to chat a bit wid him lahs. moii com siao addy. i miss himm. =(
* kardong. missing in ACTION.
LOOK. wad happen to kardong. wad is he doiin?
*SQUEEZY in dere okiie. kardong missing again. leona & ju is flyin away???
[[ WHY guys always make gals cry? ]]
Break free,
6:44 AM
haiis. 25jan. a daes full of memoriies & tears. remembering 25jan2oo4 it was e dae since i last saw ivan. wouldnt forget tat tight hug he left moii. haiis. jus now i saw his nick. i cried. i duno why. perharps i am jealous but i noe i wasn't. i had a knife stab in my heart agaiin. i didn't noe i will break down as i hab see him goiin thru wid so manii. & i tot i addy used to it le. but e fact was my heart still couldn't take it. tears still flow down my cheeks. haiis.
todae morniin couldn't wake up frm bed lohs. cos was dreamiin. dream damm funii sia. den went to skool to meet dem. POA was okiie. mr teo didn't scold us sia. hahas. den was SS. we did e worksheet & two period pass so fast. woot. den recess lohs. after den was english do e correction all dis lahs. den e guys kp make me luff lohs. till e water i drank went inside moii nose. den splash all over e floor. den was amath. did some revision & of cos tokiin. hahahs. den was chem. got test. very fast pass. den was cme las two period. den potato cum. den he tok tok den let us do e excercise. den we all tok wid liru & tommy lohs. den noe quite a few tings lohs. den afta skool. go plae bball wid dem lohs. den he dere. but wen we wana plae den he go le =(. after went to canteen. tok tok & eat eat. den went to e leadership tingy. den need to go camp on fri lohs. sians half lehs. den go gplaza wid yu & min. den we tok & luff lohs. den i sae e ting dey kp luff & luff. duno fer wad. reach home watch tv. las espisode sia. so nice lehs. den afta dat dinner den go dental appointment lohs. e doc sae i gonna take out in a few months time. woot.. =). den mum & dad decorating dad car so i stood dere plaeiin wid dad's sunglass.lol. den go bangkit buy ting. den came home lohs. now tokiin wid him. haiis
___* my greatest WRONG was to fell fer YOU.
Break free,
6:14 AM
hiyos. paiseh yesterdae bo update cos go out mahs. basically dis was how i spend my sundae ydae. wake up change e bedsheet den went to jurong to makan lohs. mum bought her godson along lohs. hahas. can feel lyk he is my own didi lyk dis. dote on hiim so muh lohs. after den went to mum's godson hse. den went home lohs. den me do abit of hw den sians half so go fer a nap lohs. wake up dat time sis call me go bath cos mum bringin us out. den me & sis took bus to bugis lohs. den walk walk. me saw e bilabong wallet which i wan lohs. i gonna buy it!!! hohoho. den go over to e other side. den me bought moii vondutch bag. YEAAH!! i am in love wid pink colour. afta den took taxi over to chinatown lohs. eat e breadd & coconut. nicee!!! den walk walk. reach home addy 11 le. den de end of e dae lohs.
todae 5.50am wake up cos alarm st wrong time so went back slp nohs. den wake up abit late to meet ju & min lohs. hehes. reach dere. see ju hair funni sia.lol. den first period was chem lohs. masrena not bad lahs hors. still can understand abit. after den it was orange. as usual i won't listen. den recess. den chinese lohs. siao siao me spelling full marks got lolipop.lol. den phy. sians half. i slp in cls lohs. den de guys kp lisiao lohs.lol. afta den was lunch. went to bbc. den plae match lohs. me.leo & chuan kor win lohs. YEAH! too bad he wasn't dere. walaoo! den my face kena hui rong lohs. paiin sia. =( after den was math. got test. 3 period pass so fast. den geo so fast over. den noe mr orange confiscated his hp. aiyohh!! kill mr lim. lifeskill. ms lee lyk angrii. aiyah duno lahs. afta den skool end. go 527. den gplaza. den plae match wid ivan dey all but we lost. sad sad. den go home lohs. moii sis call me acc her to chinatown to change e skin but i dun wan. ahahs. todae nv see him online =(( . duno why de feeling towards him wasn't de same le. haiis.
wad i wana do tis wk.
- get moii fridge cut.
-get e bilabong wallet.
- get moii contact lens. ( if mum allow.)
love is a game. it has mani player & it end wid GAME OVER. ]]
Break free,
6:01 AM
wahh! i so fed up le lohs. e com so lag & jus now make a blogksins eveyting got missing lohs. hate it! todae wake up quite earli cos mum bought me to hab br8fast at plaza lohs. eat e korea food till so full lohs. den walk walk lohs. bought a shoes. afta den go home. den me fall a slp. wake up by min msg. afternoon go west view prii take e busary lohs. it lyk so sians lohs. but heng ning was sitting bside me. &min was lyk far bhind me lohs. den jordan hors damm tall okiie. 187 lohs. i cnt even touch his headd. omgg!!!! den walk home it was lyk so hot lohs. omggg!!! den min suggest suntent.hahas. kidddin de. reach home. help mum abit den fall a slp again. lmao.. den wake up went fer dinner at bangkit den saw asmirah. den walk. came home came online. nv chat muh wid him todae. =( M E M O R I E S r tings belong to YOU not ME. ]]
Break free,
7:07 AM
heys. back frm town. ydae nite went ktv wid moii familee. sang so manii songs lohs. sing till cough cough le. =( todae wake up 9+ den mum bought br8fast. den de mee so big pack lohs. she buy 4 packets can eat 10 ppl lohs. hahas. den prepare awhile den went out.den de ayu so late lohs. den me&yu met erjie. den we board de bus. hahas. reach dere we walk walk. den we took neoprint.lol. me wid moii weirdoo face okiie.! den dey hors go inside every shop aso see e mirror. den moii buy PMK shirt. & e plastic bag is damm kewt lohs. i LOVE PMK!. hehes. den ayu bought a malay bag.lol den we go KFC. den yu & ju eat me see see. den got one singh SIAO wan . kp point above den got mata dere. den me so peipei dere lohs. afta met leo. den saw yunweii & eric. den aso huiru & valerie dey all. den walk walk. den we go inside e toilet we saw yihui & serene.den walk walk more den saw chenghoon & gang. den of cos aso seng dey all lahs. den seng wear till lyk go market. afta den i saw HIM. but me nv see his face oni see his bag. i REGRET u noe. & ju sorrie moii beat u at e back till red redd. dun cry.hahas. den walk walk more saw flower dey all. den we go over to heeren. den he actually got go de but i duno why end up dun hab. go heeren makan den saw kaili & frens.den moii sms zhuhao. he sae dey at mrt goiin queensway means he not meetiin us le. =((( i am dissapointed. but at least me get to hab him ard todae. he bo break his promise & i tink todae we got sms thru zhuhao de fone. i duno izit him lahs. afta den me saw mic & shan jie.hehes. seems lyk zhenghua day.den go take neoprint again. dis time wid ahleoo. den afta we went over to taka. den we go KFC again. den walk walk. den go inside a gift shop den we four crazi gals luff inside dere till got ppl cos us shhh. lol. shoo fun. we plae e bball. lol. den me buy pig de red packet. =)). den we went to meet seng. den go over to cinelesure. den walk walk. den leo dey all eat at longjohn lohs. afta den we go home. den seng so good. he gib us $$ to take cab home. but dere is no cab lohs. HEELL!! we walk frm cinelesure back to ngee ann city to fareast plaza. den we manage to gt one lohs. den walk home wid leo. den de park scariie nehs. reach home help mum kp tings den came online. jus now chat wid him abit den he go offline le. suddenly got a feeliing he is avoiddin me lohs. =((
y did i chose you among so manni guys dere? ]]
Break free,
8:07 AM
heys. todae update earli cos later nite goiin out wid moii familyy.hehes. ehs. todae as usual. den first periiod math lahs. sians half. den eng. slp till so SHUANG okiiee. hahhahas! den recess. me saw him =) den after was SS. got test. me get 14/20. -_-. den POA lohs. so confusiin. my brain r burstin.! ohman. den chinese got ting xia. den afta was amath. den skool end. short ahs? den go ahleo hse. den me plae her gameboii. hahas. me plae super mario so fun game lohs. last time moii always plae de. den go gplaza makan. den go 527 plae. hahas. den came home lohs. wana go home saw mic jie den tok tok. den aso saw jas dey all lohs. but he not dere. =(. tml goiin orchard wid jiemeiis. hope he will b dere. i got a FEEL he wouldn't go. haiis. wish u b dere okiie. muacks.woaiinii. ____*
pls go tml. plsss!!! i miss you.!
Break free,
1:42 AM
todae update eaelier cos goinn out wid mum later. todae was lyk quite late fer meetiin dem. den first period pe. go run 1.8km. walao. run back so itchy& tired lohs. fuk up. den do lots of pumpiin & sit up lohs. walao ehs. after den was math den me & leo quite attentive de lohs. but ms lee angri wid us. den recess. den afta den was EL lohs. so leisure. his lesson sian half lohs. den we makan infront of him smre. got chocolate & seaweed chicken.lol den was chinese but deniis ong bo cum so we do our own tings lohs. den phy. de teh bring us go lab. den me do POA work dere. den slp aso. hahas. den last two period was POA. mr teo taught us one qns oni den go home lohs. afta skool go gplaza. makan.den plae match wid ICE. we won lohs. ehhes! las ball moii tyco. den sit tok & plae. den jas dey all cum.den de frena de didi bery cute& handsome lohs.hahas. den go home. ohya!! ju & tommy break le lohs. saddedd.!!! =(( guys always find reason de. hmm. haben being tokiin to him. =(( happie burfdae XUANCHONG. heys boii. older le. smile always wohs. stay koolz =)). & sly aso. smilee!!!
woaiini. YES I DO.
Break free,
3:38 AM
loffie. todae morniin meet ju &min lohs. den reach skool. me &leo go bbc see ppl lohs. lol. den he dere :) den first periiod is POA. mr teo seems so serious but he smile quite kewt nehs. hahas. den SS lohs. dun understand wad de cher sae but got copii down. hahas. den recess afta den it was eng lohs. den gary deu all kp spit e aloe vera den mr lim snatch e bottle frm dem. den went mr lim got e bottle he act cute lohs. walao ehs. den a math lohs. den chem de teacher bo teach cos she las dae. so me & leo went out. den suddenly got fight den de whole cls rush out. den go hall. den moii saw him.hehes. at hall tok bout sexuality. den e abortion so erxin.den go gplaza makan lohs. den go 527. den plae wid e ppl lohs. den go back. den actually wana go.. but nv go le. den me wana go home tat time saw him dey all. den i wna go gplaza buy ting mah so went wid dem lohs. but we nv tok lahs. but i noe he noe i purpeously dere de mahs. ahahs. den reach home do POA watch tv. but duno how do. so went to plaza to makan KFCC.yummii. den mum wana change e door. woott. it is so nice. hahas. den walk walk at plaza den go home. mum promise new yr mayb gonna let me wear contact lens. yeaa!! hehes. now online lohs. slpiin soon. me too tiredd.! happie burfdae caiihui. stay happie & tkariies.
y is dere a word called FEELING?
Break free,
5:00 AM
ehs. i now berii TIRED lehs. me wan zZZz le. hehes. todae meet ju dey all lohs. me reach earlii cos scare ju kena bulli by some ppl lohs. duno wad dose ppl wana do lahs. aiyohs. reach skool but rain so go back cls. den heard ting bout someone & someone lahs hors. dun wana sae hu. den duno hu saeiin de truth lahs. poor ju sudenly so mani probs. tat someone aso poor ting lahs hors. more & more problems. den cls all so sians lahs. first period is chem den eng. yawns. den got bee lohs. den make me tink of las year 2n2 we got escape theme park.lmao. so mani memoriies. miss n2 dudes. den recess. den chinese. mr ong told us alot of ting again. den he gib us one ws.den he go thru. moii listen till wana fall a slp liao. den phy me slp lohs. den we throw paper ardd. den lunch. we go plae bball lohs. den jas kick moii butt lohs. walao. but jas hors he so zhun la. one hair eat burger one hand plae. still all chop de lohs. walao. *clap* den go back cls. math math & math. den geo me slp till shuang den suddenly leo touch moii head me chua tioo. den lifeskill. den skool end. go pizza hut makan till full.den went plae bball it was ffunn!!!! den go makan wid parents but me nv eat lahs. den go gplaza wid mum buy ting lohs. hehes. den me saw JUNHAO & juju dey all lol. haiis. drifting apart agaiin?
dun lyk u yet LOVE you.
Break free,
4:46 AM
hmm. yesterdae bo update so moii update together lohs. ydae morning wake up by mum she call me go bangkit wid her so gta wake up frm e bed lohs.bought some tings & had br8fast den went home. moii continue slpiin. den miin sms me lohs. everytime lyk dis de lehs. den do hw awhile den went out wid leo dey all lohs. leo go cut her haiir so we go see see lohs. den duno hu use kd fone call me lahs. lisiao lohs. den afta leo cut finis we go ljs makan. den we walk walk. den take merz taxii to 527 lohs. den leo go tok wid kd dey all. aso duno wad happen lahs. why everytiin turn out lyk diis. den we plae match wid peiipeii dey all. we won lohs.den de malay gal so FUCK lohs. i hate her to e cord okiie. she sucks man. den peiipeii accidentally hate moii mouth den bleed. walao ehs. now paiin lohs. but nvm lahs. den we plae second match wid dem. dis time i addy bu shuang de malay gal le lohs. take e ball she shout foul lol. wtfff.!!! ur braiin at ur butt ahs. u r e one wid no SPORTMANSHIP okiie. den moii shoe spoil lohs. so mum help me bring down. den go gplaza walk walk. den go tenmile. den mum & dad at dere makan. me see lohs. den go shengsong. den go home. mum tidy me & sis de room lohs till 1+ den 2+ den slp lohs. YAWNS.
todae wake up by my parents cos moii vacumm cleaner spoil den got sound so noiisy. den do some work den went to de hokiien society dere hab breakfast den go moii ahyi de hse. den we go outram park lohs. go OG. den sis bought a shoe moii bought a bilabong skirrt. hey!!! i love dat skirt damm muh lohs. bery 'cheap' lehs. hahas. ur should now how cheap lahs hor. den go walk walk somemore den me bought another 2% jeans skirt. hehes.! i hab finis buyin moii shirt. but still owe a paiir of shoe. a puremilk racer back shirt & a puremilk jacket. woot. den went to drink at e hawker saw yueli. den walk walk more den go home lohs. go bangkiit hab dinner. den came home. here i am. so tiredd & puzzledd.
[[ days w/o u = beach w/o sand. ]]
Break free,
5:30 AM
todae ahs soso dae lahs hors. morning wake up recieve msg frm ju. she sae she not gonna meet us le. aiyohhs!!! den first period. is geo. den de mr lim so erxin nohs. den amath. ms lee. den chinese. mr ongg!!! whoo!! np yeaa! den got assemblyy. sians nehs. tok tok tok. afta den go home.den went to gplaza dey eat i see nohs. den go npcc. we actually take e sec2 de . den we do until so shi baii lohs. walao ehh!!! hahas. but it was fun. den dennis ong test our drills. goodd sehh!!! de bang nice nicee!! den campcraft. sians halff. but he was dere =) . den afta npcc we go out of skool. walk walk. den go back skool agaiin. he was dere. den actually we wana plae match de den ahsng cum. so we go 527 lohs. den alot of ppl. den we go 621. reach dere plae plae awhile. den he told moii tommy go 527 cos weelin wana see him.haiis. den ju so worried nohs. why problems among guys. gals hab to suffer? it's so UNFAIR okiie. poor ju. but afta den no probs le. thanks to e guys lah hors. den go gplaza lahs. he dere lohs. i see liao quite okiie lahs. den drink. den gp lohs. afta den wana go back 621 den ayu sadd =(. aiyohs. weeseng is still ur choice my dear. den HIM dey all duno go where lahs. nv follow us to 621. moii saddd =(( . den suddenly gp cum again lohs. iduno wad happen lahs. i jus nv eat for one dae den gp cumm. haiis. =((. den we at dere wait awhile den he still bo cum. =(. so we go home le lohs. reach home bath den now online. gonna slp soon. i m TIREDD. hehes! todae we two fang dian. lol. =x.
-]] you hurt moii badlyy. i need you. !!
Break free,
5:59 AM
haiis. i duno wad happen todae was a real bad dae fer moii. i am feeling so miserable. i feel so weak. moii body lyk archiin lyk siao lohs. firstly is moii nose. ydae kena hit by xy. now still feel weird weird de. cnt realli smell.secondly is moii head. kena hit so manii time dis few wks den headache man. thirdly is moii stomach or rather gastriic. i duno where lahs. den moii hand kp fa dou lohs. wad happeniin to mee? & i duno why i jus feel lyk cryiin lohs. i dunoo!!!! i feel so arghhh lohs. wad is all tis feel? wad r they mean? i feel tat i am goiin to die u noe. noone seems to care lohs. at home nobodi acc moii. haiis. noone's dere.!!! i criiedd.!!! wad's happeniing.?? i hate myselff. i really br8downn le. i gib up on living le.
i got no mood to write about wad happen todae. sorry!!! i am sadd.
heys. i am back in mood. hehes. he did care fer moii & i am so happie lahs. at least dere is still someone out dere who actually care. den i started tokiin about releationshiip again. den he call moii to tok to him more lohs. dun b lyk stranger. hehes. he totally change moii mood lahs. but my hands r still shiveriin lohs. it hurts. hmm. jus now tok on conference lohs. den he dere we did chat. den leo.min & huahua aso dere. =)) woainii menn. ohya! still got ayu. okiie. saeiin but todae. in e mornning went to meet ju dey all.den he wid tom lohs. den dey duno how to tell shimin mahs. so ask me to tok wid her lohs. shimin SORRY. den ju & tom hold hand nohs. 1st dae oni lehs. walao. so fast ahs? ahhas. denfirst periiod lee's lesson lahs. den got listen abit. den mr orange lessoon. we copi e work. den leo show him attitude.lmaoo.! den recess. ju & tommy go partor.unafraid left 4. =((. den moii stomach so paiin nohs. fuk upp!!! den ss lahs. okiie lahs. i got pay full attention todae okiie. den poaa. mr teo ask me y nv do hw. lol. den e two periiod we drawiin de balance sheet. wow. bery confusiin nehs. den chinese lahs. mr ong mon wana gib mo xie. las two period is ms lee again. amathh1!! anth confusiin wan. afta skool. we go gplaza makan lahs. den e pervert guy dere lohs. ydae moii & leo saw him mastubattin. . todae he gib us e pevertic look lohs. den he smile at me.omg! all e ppl run man. ehs. den we plae bball lahs. den i feel shoo hot & coldd. siao wan! den he bo cum. me beri sad tilll wana br8down but i didn't. when i feel tat dere wasn't love anymore.dere were more love. haiis. den winnie ang cum. den she deny sae she bo sae. aso bery confusiin. hu's in e wrong & rite. so we end up plaeiin bball wid dey all. though we lost but okiie lahs hors. den moii go take food frm dad lahs. den got tis guy hu is call guo en or sth lyk dis came up to me & ask frm moii no. i aso duno him lahs. den moii dad cum le.so i sae bye den bo tok le. den afta go home. me alone at home lohs. den moii moodd. u see up dere lahs hors. now muh happier le.
love. like & crush r three differnt tings. ppl always tot lyk&crush = love. thus causiin heartbreak & sadness. tink twicee. ]]
boiiboii. woaiinii. ______*
Break free,
3:38 AM
hmm. todae *yawns* wake up feel aircon shoo hot lohs. den prepare & went to skool. as usual ju dey all was dere le. first periiod was pe den got height & weight lahs. walaooo ehss!!! den go running. den do sit up & push up at public. hahas. den de sit up shoo funiii can hi5 wid ya partner de. den go math nohs. we chitchat wid tommy. hahas. den recess. den he cum our cls lohs. =D. he pass me e $2. anyone intrested in 4D. 2608. lmao. den was eng lahs. mr lim sian nehs. ask us to do e engg. den chinese do e zhou ye.den phy de cher call us sit in reg no. but we all nv sit. lol!!! cooperative nehs. den got poa. *yawns* den go kfc. yumyumm!! eat shrooms. smuacks.den go 527. den HIM dey all cum nohs. =) haiis. duno why wen i saw him tat time my heart was lyk droppiin out & i am shoo scare lohs. but afta tat okiie le. den we plae wid dunearn dey all. haiis. lose till siao..!!! walao ehs. den HIM dey all plae lohs. den dey winn. den seng & katak hit himm.whahhas. den plae match wid cheekeat dey all. we WONN! den afta den go home le. den dey all bhind me. den we tok awhile den go home . =)) hehes. reach home no one lehs. sadded. den watch tv , do hw. den came online. den jiayi dey all call me lohs. den chat. ahyooo!!! dey two noisy siia. den tok lohs. ehs. but now i got fever nohs. saddedd. =((. so miserable. den todae is da xi ren fer someonee. wana noe hu & hu? pls stay tune at moii bloggie. hehes. endiin le.
to b loved & to love is e feeling of e sun risiin frm both sides. ]]
Break free,
5:38 AM
haiis. jus broke down all bcos of him. i duno y lahs weneva moii & him chat about our releationship i will cry de lohs. haiis. he told moii to let go again todae. jus wana sae if i could let go. i would hab done long ago lohs. is e FEELINGG. it wasn't moii fault. i aso dun wan to love hiim okiie. loviin him is e most miserable tings i hab in my life lohs. he didn't noe e outnumber times i cried. the outnumberd time i was depress. & dere was a knife stab in my heart. hab u tot of how hurt it was? it a scar in my heart it wouldn't b heal? it all feeling fault. not mine & not his. recently he hab been in lots of troubles i tried to help up in all i could & to b dere to console hiim. was i wrong to do tat.? i jus feel tat he is sure poor tiing lohs. & i noe he would change i got faith in him. i did all dis as a part of a fren not someone special okiie. i jus hope to stay out frm dis stuff. can e feelings b off? frens is jus e releationship btwn us okiie. haiis. i jus wana stay out frm all dis craps. tired & sick of all. pls let me go. i jus hope love nv existt. =((
jus fer HIMM:
noone is a failure. if u gonna gib up urself noone cn help you. so i hope u will still hold on & face all e troubles dat r infront of ur face now. hab faith in urself tat u will change anew. tat all i wana sae okiie. as a frens i am willing to help u okiie. so do cheer up. =)
okiie. saeeiin bout todae. first periiod of POAA!!! mr teo fierce nehs. den SS . i dun understand e cher tok wad lehs. recess lohs. den i help him tok to cy. den we sms? haiis. actually was happiie lahs. but now. not sad but puzzled. he sae wan to tr8 me drink tml. will himm? den eng lohs. mr lim cls. YAWNSS. den amath den we tok & tok non stop .lol. todae e cls so enthu lohs. chem cls. so noisy. den go cme. e potato lahs. lessoon not as borin as las wk but still boring. afta den. skool end. got npcc meeting. heng bo kena scold. den go 527 lahs. den actually wana call tat gal cum de but she nv cum. aiyohhs. hum ahs? her steadd promise 4.15 on thurs cum. okiie. den we plae bball. den hongsheng got cum.den hors. e ju got hit moii headd. ouchh!!! faint.lol. den chitchat. xiaomeii & tommy.lol.den go home. watch tv. now onlinee. he offline le.=((
LOVE= special feelinggs?
Break free,
5:18 AM
lohas its moii agaiin. todae wake up felt so cold lohs. x) freeze nehs. den went to skool wid shoo mani books. 6 books in mybag & 5 bookes on moii handd. wadd. STRESSS!!! change timetable. den change to chem first periiod.den rashidd cum lohs. she tok i nv listen. so she ask hu lost den i sae ME den she ask hu r u i still sae ME den she lyk so pissed off.hahas. she teachiin moii toking wid e ppl lahs.shoo funni lohs. all calling moii weinaii. afta den orange de cls. quite sian nahs.but hors i found tat orange change alot lahs. tis yr more funni &lame lahs. good wadd. den recess lohs. den mt. dennis ong gib us spellin.den moii & leo shoo scared his cls lohs.cos fri we pon npcc mahs. den dun dare face him but he actyally SMILE to moii lohs. ahhas. den he told us about his childhood story.'yao siu kiia.'. den got phy lahs. me duno why his period moii shoo tired nohs. den slp den e tommy lisiao lohs.lol. den he teach i nv listen. gonna fail chem & phy. i wan ms neooo!!! den lunch.moii & ahleoo go plae bball lohs. den someone dere,*blusheddd* first time plae bball in skool in 2oo5. den got emath & amth lahs. weiqi lyk angrii wid us. amath paper get 18/25.whhahahahas. same as ahleooo. we copii? lol. no lahs. den geo lohs. orange again.den we chit chatiin aso. den lifestyle.ms lee actually wan change plce de. den got change lahs. den at las change back.lol.she cute nohs. den afta skool go plae bball nohs. den i saw him wid some ppl which he is not suppose to b wid. i am like so dissapointed lohs. hope my wild imgaination was WRONGGG.!!! den saw niao niao den i sae he wear gao yao ku.lol!!! den dey see him dey call him ' winnie nah' .lol . den we reach dere hongsheng bo cum.den we go gplaza. makan friess & icecream.den he bhind me lahs. moii scare nehs.hehes. den go back 527 den plae bballwid cheekeat dey all. we losee. cnt blive lohs. we LOSE lohs. saddedd.!!! nvm still got other chance. den reach home.watch tv.dinner. den jus now i chat wid him lahs. i feel tat he change le lehs. haiis.poor hiim. woaiinii boii. =)) moii jus got a new meii meii. she told me about a fukiin gal lohs. she sucks man. somemore tat fukin gal aso call winnie throw all e 'winnie's face awayy!!! suckksss!!!
we seems so near yet so far.
Break free,
4:47 AM
here i am. todae update earli cos later not online le. wana watch renci. lol tis sentence sound familiarr. hahas. go look at ju's blogg. tis morning moii dad wake me up lohs. so earli vacumm floor. siao ahs. so noisy. den went to buy tings den go moii ahma hse. tok & watch tv. den moii mum go to e tsuanami memorial tingy at expo & sis go her frens hse. both pangseh moii. walao. so i came home lohs. so now shoo sians. so came online. now chatiin wid him =)). wad a short post. nth rites. hehes. sians sundae.
x) the love isn't complete. u took away a portion of moii heart. could u return moii?
Break free,
1:21 AM
ydae nite slept pretty late lohs. den dis morning angie call me. den wake me up lohs.harloo!!! auntie ahs.u dun wan slp i wan slp lehs. den haiis kp call us go plae bball.den kp call moii fone. walao eh. den went our breakfast wid mum lohs. eat kaya toast at bpplzaa. same as ju? ju u go where eat? den went walk walk awhilee. saw e op bagg.it is actually quite nice lahs. nvm moii sis gonna buyy. den i wana buy de skirt at op lohs. den moii mum sae wear liao will lyk bery si wen. hahahass..!! me is siwen bai lei wan nohs. den went homee. den moii mum went out i at home alone. not soon jie came home wid her frens. den dey make e SHE poster fer the concert todae lohs. dey make till shoo nice lohs. haiis. too badd me cnt go. den i plae com lohs. chitchat. den aso got one tudi todaee. hahhahahas. den watch tv. den went to bb to fetch mum den go yewtee makan chicken cultlet rice. den dat fuking malay gal rites. gib me attitudee. everytime go dere got ppl show me attitude de lehs. den walk nearly fall down lohs. saw a black cat. shoo unluccky!!!! den came home plae com. now chattin wid him.. =) nitesnites.
wen was e las time i smilee? ]]
Break free,
5:39 AM
todae was actually quite a nice dae. but duno why now i jus feel so SADDD. i jus feel lyk breakiin down. haiis. perharps jus bcos of himm? i duno wad happen? jus now still fine de. suddenly my heart feel so heavvy. i m sadd.!!! went to skool as usual.first periiod mr lim again. everydae see him till sians. he teach geo copii mr koh de. walao. den me got slp awhile & watch e tsuanami ting. den amath. siians ahs. more & more tings to remember. i feel amath ez den emath? lol. duno lehs. den recess. den got chinese lahs. mr ong told us about he go thailand massage. den funni lyk siiao lohs. den he tell us 11 mar np go msia. den go hall. listen to mr lim niam lahs. den skool ends. actually wana go npcc de. den dey sae dun wana go lohs. so end up nv go. we go pizza hut makan. den fayan aso dere. now npcc die lahs. oni 7 pppl was present. skool reopen sure diee de lohs. haiis. den we go 527 lohs. plae bball wid e bbatok de. den we won. koolz. den plae wid jas dey all we lose by one mark onii? we shoo good ? hahas. den we won icee. dat was e gr8 task. whahahs. den sit dere tok. den de leona didi shoo cute. he 22 feb bdae lehs.hahas. den go home. dinner so shoicck arhs. ohyaa. moii gain one kg lohs. wadd e fukkk. den came online. chat lahs.siian.endiin. helpin him do tings.
forgib not equal to forget. ]]
Break free,
5:40 AM
happie burfdae . fungiii. ~ hehes. bacteriia here.lol.
todae was a normal dae lohs. went to skool. first periiod we had chem lahs. siian ahs. e cher teach nt as good as neo lohs. den got el lahs. dat orange periiod. hiis cls moii leo. & e two weixiong all slp. lol. sianz half..zZzz. watch wad movie. not intrestedd. den recess. den got ss lohs. de projector got probs lahs. cnt see. den got poaa. siiian ahs. dun understand at all. chinese shoo funni. mr ong teach us new tings. qi mu zhi. hahahahs. den we go scold ms lee. den amath lahs. den went gplaza makan. eat till bloatt. den plae bball lohs. soso lahs. den we call e 'huishan' qi mu zhi. lol.she sucks lahs. den plae bball wid e kids. den go home watch tv lohs. jus now i manage to chat wid him lohs. chat till so good. den moii sis so tmd de lohs. she go complain sae she wan plae den i sure no choice wan mahs. den i told him 9 cum back but my sis use till 930 . den he left le. i m sadd. shoo sad till tears drop. i hate moii sis. haiis. mabbie i shd really acc tat dere no fate btwn us? wen i feel tat we r drifting apart he is dere still . haiis. wo haii ai ni..? muacks.
wo ye hen xiang ta. wo ai ni.
Break free,
5:46 AM
hohoho. ydae nv update cos moii mum dun let me cum online.
yesterdae siians half at nite recieved miin sms lohs. den she tell moii bout himm. i hear liao so heart pain lohs. haiis. i aso dun wana care anynore le. i am sick& tired le. todae raiin den nv go parade square lohs. den moii go cls lohs. first periiod haniif bo cum lohs. den e lao wu guii cum lahs. haahs. she bery GOODD. she let us plae hp in cls. den can go out fer fun. den ask jas bout tat lohs. haiis. i aso duno which side is true or wad lahs. den math lahs. den recess lohs. den engg. sianss. slp. zZzz. den mt lohs. dennis ong tell us a lot of joke. he biias. yeaa!!! npcc rocks. den got phy. dat cher berii funni lahs. he kp repeat lohs. shoo funnii. den poa de cher bo cum again so lao wu guii cum again. afta skool den go plaza. we eat kfc. den go popular den go 527. plae bball wid blue crush & two west view gal. den plae plae plae. so fun. den plae full court den my two toe nails bleed i aso duno. den chit chat wid dem lohs. quite good lahs. den go home. watch tv. den makan. den now use com. now using fone wid unafraidd. gtg. buaiis.
[[ nv frown even u r sadd. cos u duno hu's falliin in love wid ya smile. ]]
Break free,
4:38 AM
a brand neww yearr. a brand new skool daes.
haiis todae wake up quite earlii den prepare. bath it was shoo coldd lohs. i shiver lyk siiao as if i am frozen le lohs. den went off to skool. meet ju dey all. cos we need to settle e npcc stuff. needa paste e poster. hope e sec 1 all joiin okiie. lol .=) den afta paste finis went to walk walk. as it is raiinning e ramp dere so crowded. so i walked to e field dere den saww him. lol. his haiir so funni. den moii pass jas de earstick. den dey startedd commenting my haiir. den walk awhile more den went up to cls. our form teacher is ms lee. hhmmm. dun seem fierce. but yet to b seen. first periiod got mr teo periood. sodda sian lahs. poaaa.!!! den got orange cls. yeah!! he teach us engg. den recess. den mt. mr dennis ongg our chinse cher. quite good lahs him. share wid us e tsuanami pic. den he quite care bout npcc. yeah. it rocks.!!! den got sci but de cher nv cum so moii go lisiao at other cls lohs. geo aso. go n2 sit sitt. lol. got lunch.. den lifestyle so on & fall. den sng call us go hall lohs. tot is attire checck. i matii.!!! hair too long. fridge too longg. earstick. lol. den he tok bout things. den went to 527. den saw e xi lin men guy . i lost moii pigg so sadd. anybody happen to see. pls pass it to moii. den go gplaza awhile den plae match wid e guyss. we wonn. yeah. den went home. den mum came back. so i told her bout e cans den she sae she wana go buy. so went buy den she bought about 14 cans.woww.!!! den watch tv. den online lohs. ohyaa! todae i heard tings bout him agaiin. i tink is ENUF le. i dun wan to sympathise you so muh le. i waste moii time chatting wid u & i duno if u were lyk actin to change. i dunoo. & i jus dun wana noee. i dun wana care le. but y still love ya so muhh? miss ya so muhh? tink of ya so muhh? so manni daes no tok.. haiis. todae u happen to smile wen i pass by. hmmm. e feelingg. woott!!!
[ afta all e obtacles & challengess. falling dere i amm ]
Break free,
5:09 AM
2jan...> todae wake up at 10+. it was rainning. omg. it is shoo coldd. lyk snowiin lohs. den bath. so cools.den went to ahma hse. she cook food fer us. den makan. chitchat.den moii slp awhile.lol. den watch tv. den went to jp lohs. walk walk. den wana go home dat time.sis dun wana go home. den mum pull her home lohs. den she kinda of show attitude.aiyahh. dun care lahs. den went home lohs. den watch tv. den now online. siian . skool reopening le. gonna see him le. yeahh!!! but tink of e cls. SIANSSS. misshim.haiis.
1jan2oo5.. > yawns. wake up at 11+ den daddie bought moii fav food fer moii. hehes .afta eatin me & mum plae poker. lol.den we went to gplaza.came home moii go slp again.lol shoo tired. wake up help to change e matress den watch tv. den went to plae plae station. but not working so me watch e woaiinii mv.shoo nicee. den went out to eat at plaza. saw hooniie on e way. reach dere yk sae he saw moii but me nv see. went to eat japanese food. den go popular. bought somne stuffs den go value shop den ntuc. den went home. reach home wrote name on book den do abit hw. lol. tml skool starting le. hw all undone.den watch tv. den duno le lahs. slp at 1+...
31dec. (part2) ...> hmm. met up wid leo dey all lohs. den reach dere saw xuanchongg. his cousiin & benny den sodda of suprise lahs. den miin cum i told her. she so anxiious sia.lol. den we go gplaza. den go de 621 dere lohs. but shoo siian. so we go to bball court den got 2 guy dere one is 'vondutch'. den leo dey all tot he is jer. lol. anth guy duno de. den we went to sit at e electric room dere lohs. toktok. den got one gal plaein catching so she came to hide at our here lohs.den she shoo guaii lan sia. bery fierce but cute. den lijin.wilbert & seng cum lohs. den dey lisiiao dat gal. den got police cum den dey kena lohs. aiyohs. den go plaza. we walk .den ju sae she cuming to find us. so dey ate at long john silver den moii dun wan eat. so when ju cum. moii & her go mos to buy. den saw e jian nu ren. she wear vondutch. walao. insult von dutch.somemore tml onwards gonna see her face five time a wk. sians ahs. den we went back to de place lohs. den go 621 de block dere. den go xiiao meii hse. den came down fer countdown lohs. godgod.ahboon & ahbert came aso. whoo. den it is a new year le. shoo fast. shoo start sms. but cnt get thru. recieve lotsa msg tis year. it was koolz.hehes. den afta de countdown duno go where lahs..den dey wana cum moii hse. but my mum sae cnt. cos scare later deir parents cnt find dem. hahas. den i bluff dem sae moii mum sae dey too smelly cnt go. lol. den went home.watch tv.slp at 3 .
+ i wana noe wad is lovee. could u teach me? ]]
Break free,
4:01 AM
